My second attempt at setting goals was less about task completion and more about supporting others. Classroom walls could not contain my aspirations. At the time I was participating in a MOOC (Massive Open Online Course) to study George Couros' book Innovator's Mindset. I wrote a post titled Reflection as a Tool for Innovation, and in that post, I reflect on the changes from year one to year two. I highly recommend the book and going deeper into the text through the IMMOOC.
I felt frustrated as I was thinking about my hopes, dreams, and aspirations for 2018 because 2017 felt incomplete. What went wrong?
When I was reading last year's post, Reflection as a Tool for Innovation, I identified the problem:
I have been feeling like I want to challenge myself in new ways, but have also felt the fear and uncertainty of what that might mean. Staying in the classroom at a school district that I have called home for the last seventeen years is safe. I can experiment with innovative thinking in my lessons, question the status quo, and take risks without the fear of what will happen if it fails. I get to have so much freedom because I have proven myself through past successes. The work of noticing and reflecting on how my goals have changed brought me to realize that I am ready for the uncertainty of a new challenge.
This year will be different. I submitted my intent to resign for the upcoming school year, which was a scary thing to do since I do not know what I will happen. I have no new job lined up, just a belief that I am capable of more.
I do know this, if I continue to do the same thing- the results will be more of the same.